Day 15:

Testing the main character theory — one awkward day at a time.

The day started strong.
I ticked every box on my Ideal Day list:

• • Pilates ✅
• • Walk ✅
• • Food ✅
• • Water ✅
• • Blog ✅
• • Social posts ✅

Basically an Olympic gold medal in adulting.

I even came up with a new idea — a face-to-camera video with “Auntie Jenli” advice.
Went thrifting, came home inspired, recorded the whole thing…

And then…
I went to edit — and realized the mic had been glitching the whole time (of course it did — because apparently the universe loves a punchline).

All that time.
All that energy.
Gone.

I cried that evening (cue tiny violins and a dramatic stage-left exit).
Not just because of the footage.
But because it should’ve felt like a good day.
I did everything I said I wanted to do — and still ended the day feeling like something was missing.

That’s the weirdest part of growth.
Sometimes the results are right there… but the satisfaction isn’t (10/10 would not recommend as a life hack).

Sometimes showing up feels like it should unlock something — joy, pride, magic —
but all it unlocks is more questions.

And that has to be okay too.

There’s no rule that says every day will feel like a win, even when it is one.

Some days, you do it all…
And it still doesn’t land.
Not yet.

So here’s what I’m trying to remember:

It counts. Even when it feels like it doesn’t.
The rhythm is the reward — even when the melody is missing.

Let’s see what Day 16 brings (preferably with less crying and more working microphones).