Day 9:

Trying to build the life I want… one missed Pilates session at a time.

I’ve been showing up on socials.
Reels, captions, blogs, all of it. I’ve even been following the plan. Mostly.

But there’s this little layer underneath — the one no one really sees unless I say it out loud — where I still don’t show up fully for myself.

Not in the loud ways. In the quiet ones.
The ones no one would notice missing but me.

Like actually putting on real clothes, even if no one’s going to see me.
Doing my castor oil pack before bed.
Writing my three good things.
Not scrolling while I eat.
Tiny choices that don’t look like much but somehow make me feel more like me.

And here’s the thing — I have an Ideal Day.
Not a fantasy day in France where I live off figs and character development…
but a real, doable day. One that already fits in my life, my budget, and my current phase.
I’ve literally mapped out the rhythm.
I know what to do.
I know when to do it.
I even know how it feels when I do.

I just… don’t.

At least not all of it.
Not every day.

So today, I thought I’d share my actual “Ideal Day” — not because I’m living it perfectly, but because I want to start giving an account of what I did and didn’t do each day.
Not to shame myself.
Not to impress anyone.
Just to track the pattern.
See what sticks.
See what changes.

Because I have a theory.

I think showing up for the little things — even at 60%, even imperfectly — builds something bigger than just another routine.
I think it builds trust.
With myself.
With the version of me I say I’m becoming.

🕰️ Morning Rhythm (0–2 hrs after waking)

Wake + water + salt

Coffee + protein bar

Journal (10–15 min max — calibrate, not spiral)

Pilates/weights (20–25 min — short & timed)

Shower + get ready (signal the shift)

🍳 Mid-Morning Focus (2–4 hrs after waking)

Breakfast + supplements

10-min walk OR vibration plate

Content editing or filming (1–2 pieces max)

💻 Midday Work Block (4–6 hrs after waking)

Deep work (AI course / writing / website / inventory)

Noise-canceling headphones, 90-min timer

No scrolling mid-block

🥗 Lunch + Regroup (6 hrs in)

Lunch + supplements

Quick check-in for afternoon focus

🏫 School Pickup + Family Zone

Pick up girls

Connect, decompress

Low-stress dinner prep

🧘‍♀️ Afternoon Flex Block (6–8 hrs in)

Option A: Admin catch-up / emails / light creative
Option B: Rest, read, or dreamy content (no guilt)
Option C: Creative play — photos, Pinterest, styling

🍽️ Evening Wind Down

Dinner with family

Quick tidy

Optional: walk or vibration plate

Red light, castor oil or dry brush, feet up, magnesium, oil on feet

🛏️ Night Ritual

Final check-in: 3 good things

Lights out at reasonable time (no scrolling in bed)

Today’s Check-In: Showing Up for the Small Things

Today I showed up by meal prepping.
My days go so much easier when I have food ready to grab. Once I hit creative flow — whether it’s editing a reel, writing the blog, or working on the book — I can easily blow right past mealtimes.
And when that happens, I either forget to eat… or grab whatever’s fast. (Which, let’s be honest, is rarely what my body actually wants.)

None of it felt Pinterest-worthy.
But it felt like support.
And I think that counts more than aesthetics right now.

Here’s what else I did today:

• Walked (even if I didn’t want to)
• Got on the vibration plate
• Posted on socials
• Got dressed — even added a little makeup
• Wrote this blog (hi, proof)

What I skipped:

• Pilates
• Castor oil pack
• Evening fascia work
• Half my water (better than none, still not enough)

How I felt about it:
Honestly… better than expected.
It wasn’t a gold star day, but it felt aligned. Like I wasn’t fighting myself.
I didn’t check every box, but I noticed where I showed up — and that made me want to keep going.

What I learned:
Turns out, even half the rhythm is enough to shift the whole day.

Let’s see what tomorrow brings.